A Flower Fairy, a transition and a letting go
Rachel Ellen Andrews tagged art, commission, equinox, painting, transition
Today is the autumnal equinox and in my corner of the world here it involves a Flower Fairy Commission, a transition and a letting go.
This little painting is a commission.
It has a unique story, as do all painting requests. It is for my youngest son's girlfriend. They're both off to Uni today and Hannah asked if I could paint her a picture to put in her room! This came as a total surprise to me - a very lovely surprise but a bit of a shock really. You see, I had no idea that she liked my paintings. Neither she nor my son, James, have mentioned them before now. What's even more surprising is that James likes them too!! I was under the impression he thought my painting was just something a bit quirky that his mum did, nothing you shared with your girlfriend or discussed. But apparently not!!
I'm so pleased and proud and feel quite emotional about it. I also feel very honoured that this lovely young woman wants one of my paintings to adorn her wall. (and more than a little excited that a bit of goddess energy is going with them - they are both going to the same Uni)
It's been a strange time the last month, knowing that James is leaving soon. And now it's upon us. As a mother, you spend your life letting go of them - first play group, first day at nursery, first day at primary school, first sleepover, first scout camp, first day at secondary school, and more recently - the first music festival and a lads' holiday abroad.
For him, stepping onto his adult path, there's some reluctance - I want him to be excited but it's not apparent at the moment. I'm excited for him!! There will be tears, undoubtedly, but I wish him all he wants for himself; I wish him joy and lots and lots of love.
On this day of equinox, the point of balance, when day and night are of equal length, my son and I stand poised in transition. He from childhood into his adult life and me from my being a mother with children at home and moving into my next adventure (and there is one I can assure you - details coming very soon!).
I feel as if we are both like the Fool in the Tarot, poised with one foot in the air ready to take the next step off the edge of the cliff, stepping through the portal into tomorrow not knowing what lies ahead but perfect in the knowledge that the Universe will support us, ready for adventure, ready for this new life phase. As James and I make this step of transition, I trust implicitly that we are perfectly supported as we step through the portal, perfectly supported by the abundant flow of the Universe and that only good will come rushing up to meet us as we take this next step.
Where are you today on this point of balance? Are there areas of your life that need more balance? Are you also in transition from one phase to another? Please share, I love to hear from you...
From my trusting and transitioning heart to yours
Rachel xox
Reader Comments (4)
Oh Rachel! So many emotions here! How exciting to discover your son and his girlfriend admire your work, and indeed, what an honor she asked for one of your paintings! It will surely be very comforting to have your energy and that of the goddess going with them both as they head off to university and into the next stage of their lives. I'm not a mom, but I'm a daughter, and I can understand what it feels like to be on the threshold of another stage...part excitement and opening, part sadness and mourning, with a big dash of anxiety thrown in there. Yet with a few years behind us now, I think we benefit from knowing that we've had many starts and ends in life and have always come through; weatherbeaten and a bit more hesitant, perhaps, but stronger, wiser, more loving. And on this blessed day of reflection, of starts and ends and balance, we have the opportunity to once more ponder the amazing changes in life and the love and creativity that we pour into these times to transition into the next realm. Sending love and hope and strength to you <3
Not being a mother myself I can only imagine the range of emotions these milestones bring with them and I admire your grace and strength in acknowledging the transition while allowing your son to grow as he needs. It's a wonderful painting you're sending off and I'm sure it will be much admired....even if you're never told ;-)
What a lovely post! Thank you the reminder that it's a time of balance now. I love his new painting & wish you & your son all the best for these new experiences.
Kristin, thanks so much for your heartfelt reply - I'm feeling a bit weatherbeaten right now - this is going to take some getting used to!! xox
Lorinda - thank you - I'm trusting the process, and I hope the painting spreads a little love xox
Heather - lovely to hear from you! And thank you xox